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Life With Lex

Selective Patience is Ruining My Capacity to Love!

They say "patience is a virtue" and boy have I been pruned in that area. I am what you call a person with "selective patience". I have no issue waiting for the things of God or to get something big I want. My patience with people on the other hand is slim to none. I know it's bad and I promise I am working on it. One area I have noticed that my patience, or lack of patience has been affecting is my capacity to love another. 

If you have read or watched my testimony video before (click here if you have not) then you will know that my past is not pretty nor anything that the normal person would want to put on display for all of the internet to see. Luckily I'm not a normal person. But nevertheless if you do know about my past then you see how far I have come and how God has moved in my life. If I could pull everybody out of their dark places I would without hesitation.

Seeing others with so much potential using it for wrong irks my soul. I tend to be hard on others in my mind and heart and often find my thoughts sounding a lot like "They know better than to do that", "they look stupid", "when will they get tired of being stuck", "I'm not going to say anything to them because they obviously like being in this place" etc! I know what you are thinking I sound like a horrible person, but hey, I am just being honest. Don't act like you haven't thought some of those same thoughts as well.

Now that I have confessed one of my deep dark secrets let me say I know this .. the devil wants nothing more than for me to become so discouraged and disgusted about others that I begin to love them less and despise them more. Jesus didn't run from the people who were in the dark place, he ran to them. I have no stones to cast and I am no better than the ones who haven't found Jesus just yet; The only difference between them and I is my choice to say yes to all God has for me. 

I know I am not the only one who struggles with this and I wanted to let you know that if you do don't let it overtake you and ruin your witness.

Love others who aren’t free so much so that you become their ticket to true freedom.
— Alexa Gabrielle

Remember where you once were and what opened the door for you to finally say YES! Every time you have a judgmental thought combat it with a loving thought and even reach out to the person in love and let them know you are praying for them and that they are loved. There are so many lost souls out here who are just waiting for someone to pull them closer and not push them away in judgement. Will you be the one?


1 but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.

2 At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3 The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women.Now what do you say?” 6 They were using this question as a trap,in order to have a basis for accusing him.

But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”

11 “No one, sir,” she said.

“Then neither do I condemn you,”Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.” 

(John 8: 1-11)